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Battlefield of My Mind

Today the sun is hidden
Sky dark and silent
Today I will make the most
Of this magical dimness
Today my glass is half full
My body has its own wisdom
Today I must rest
Though it goes on around me
Today I shall strive for success
And know that I am stronger
Today I can be all I can be
I put my mind to my plan
Today I need calm to still my soul
Many demands on my time
Today I want to stay in bed longer
Physically tired and stressed
Today I will honour my body
With some gentle exercise
Today I will breathe deeply
Allowing the world pass me by
Today I refuse to let the egocentrics
Of others mess with my vibe
Today I realise I can only be
Responsible for myself
Today I see it was not my fault
I can’t control their reactions
Today I can’t wave my wand
I need the healing
Today I understand more about
What it means to be free
Today I see no conspiracy
My world is my making
Today I wear my armour
My mind is the battlefield
Today I am ready to fight for
Freedom from mental slavery
Today I choose to minimise
Live love and enjoy life
Today I am much wiser
Is that all you have got?

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Patience is Key

In a world of mystery
This beautiful sight
Under ancient wisdom
Shall make sense
Of the shadow
Inside forbidden wars
Making me blind
To a certain fall!

Just like sugar candy
That sweet black cat
Sang little songs
While the devil played
My heart with joy
As the moonlight shone
Truth all over my soul
Crying patience is key!

I Have Been Sleeping

My mother whispered gently in my ear
She said I should wake up and live
She doesn’t want me to mourn forever
Her sweet voice told me to forgive

I carried anger like a swollen cloud
I often wonder if she would be proud
When she was alive she didn’t approve
My behaviour was unladylike and loud

Sometimes something beautiful fades
Into fresh lilies scattered on her grave
The spirit moves in mysterious ways
These days I do what she says

There’s no cause for what will be will be
When you are struck down and out
When you have been sleeping for a decade
One day you will wake up to the truth

 That catapults you into a myriad of dreams
Dancing where great freedom reigns
It has been a decade and my mother is dead
I have been sleeping but it’s high time to awake

Bleak Expectations

Everything in its place
Bright lights shine
I am grateful
To take my time
All the while
The same old song
Sweet angel
Be my friend
Here yet again
The world is a poem
The same way in
This world of men

You know what it is
You can see it coming
Where spirit flows
Makes me feel like
Never giving in
Turned face from
Hearts that break
Can you explain
Night sky above
Wonder of nature
Silence a sound of
Bleak expectations

That Time

It’s that time of the month
When my body surrenders
To the beat of a magick drum
In 28 days again it will come
Belly aches blue and black
The pain has me on my back
I am bloated with change
And my head is deranged
From a bout of ‘period brain’
I cannot contain
Exhaustion has
Me in slow motion

Without discrimination
It is something we all know
As the wind blows over
It will come and go
Each time I remember
I am alive and conscious
My womb is fertile
And still able to produce
I am eternal mother
I am woman there is
No telling what I can do
At any time of the month

I may not smile I may snap at ya but
Women bleed it’s the way it goes
Just like the sea moves
In and out with the tide
Pulled by the magnetic
Forces of the sun and moon
There’s something powerful
Inside the this process
12 times a year I can create
I am a different creature
Able to create life
At this time of the month

As Nature Intended

Happiness awaits around
The corner of my existence
Like a dead man
Walking green mile

Hitting milestones then
Losing sight of the plan
Blinded by a vision of
A future self whose

History has left a bitter
Sweet taste in my mouth
Not one of victory
Vibes, or emotions

But the very fibre of me
Yearning to be caressed
Deep on the inside
Where I need to feel safe

Will I let down my guard
Maybe if the water is warm
I may succumb to
Temptation like many

Have done before
My body can be subdued
However my mind
Cannot be contained

It takes a moment for
Kindness to have a voice
One who whispers
Telling me worrying

Tossing turning
Inside a blackness
Terrifies the living
Daylights out of me

Where will I go
Who will I meet
If I stop to read the script
Flipped how Nature intended

Help Me Save Me From Me

I’m too close to give up now
Within I scream to quit
Too far to lose hope
It’s hard to cope
Spill these tears I feel
What do I want?
Is this is it
Can I face myself another day
Continuous questions
What if I don’t make it?
Panic rides me like a horse
I try to kick him off
He clings for dear life
This inner game is hard
The outer one a façade
Fire in my head
Horizon of my mind
Stop questioning live instead
Morality is not determined
By outer limits

Help me I’m falling
Into the black hole of self
Reach in rescue me
Help me I’m drowning in disbelief
I wish I could see what
You see when you look at me
Help me see what you see
Cause you don’t see my history
Only who I’m supposed to be
Help! Please! save me from me

From insanity to freedom
Step closer to the dream
Journey’s end, blurred vision
Nightmares with which to contend
Direction is never failure
Keep moving
Progress to the next level
Insanity threatens future
Mimic normality
Invisible torture
Seen through soul’s eyes
Distant hurts banged up
For bad behaviour
Set the scene make it vivid
Translucent hearts on one course
Fighting to emerge
From phantom delusion

Aftermath

Inside your mind there’s a landslide
You ain’t equipped to
Deal with what you’ve created
That green eyed monster has showed herself
Who or what you are you can’t decide
I’ve had it with your love it’s so dated
What did you expect when you put me on that shelf
To shrivel up and expire
Is it a crime to desire
Soul solace to break this hold?

You know I’m too old
To be stressing over a child
Who cannot accept she’s wild
Why must I hide what I trust
I said you’ll never see my pretty face
Or my sensual body ever feel
Baby you have no idea
This avalanche is for real
I’d love to spray your eyes with mace
So you totally understand the deal

I ain’t’ willing to spill another tear
I’m fixing up my game
I hope you do the same
My denial has taught me a valuable lesson
I’ve broken out of mental prison
Encapsulated by your smile
It took only a short while
The dark clouds have dispelled
No more chemicals please
I’m seeking a natural buzz

I’m shy when I’m not high
Crooked and twisted you got me
But hindsight imprints a powerful message
Reflecting right back in the mirror
Of divine decree dictating
The path I should follow
The inner knowledge
Speaks clearly to my heart
Screaming it’s time
For a brand new start

Dream Big

Dreams can come true
For you for me
Look into your heart
And see
There’s a time
And a place
For everything
Dream on
Dream big
Confusion
Illusion
Take hold of sanity
All I want
All we want
Is to be free
There’s a time
And a place
For everything
Dream on
Dream big

Aim high
Reach for the sky
Life can slow you down
Sometimes
But you gotta
Keep those hopes alive

Dream big my brother
Dream big my sister
Children dream big

There’s a time
And a place
For everything
Dream on
Dream big
Dream on
Dream big

Prodigal Daughter

I’ve been wondering round
For many years now
Not knowing about
My purpose in life
I came to you to thaw me
From this ice
Which keeps me in
This messed up state of mind
I can’t forget
The way you comforted me
When I thought my
Whole world would fall apart
My mind went AWAL
But it did not crack
You put me together
Now I’m coming back

You feel me
Understand my pain
You give me
The strength to live on
You are the one Jah
Now lead me home

Sacrificed years now
It’s time for what’s mine
I thought my existence
Would shallow fry my brain
Some doubted my virtue
Dignity they drained
I wouldn’t change a thing
I love the power I’ve gained
I have to hunt
What makes me smile
And have that inner
Laughter ring in my ears
I can’t always
Have what I crave
Jah is all I need
I’m not the same

You felt me
Understood my pain
You gave me
The strength to live on
I couldn’t go on
Doing it on my own
I needed you Jah
To lead me home

Jah healed me
Understood my pain
Jah gives me
The strength to go on
Every day
Jah is my master
I am home
Thank you Jah
For guiding me back