Even though your love life is going through big changes; you are going to get through this impasse. Your head says one thing as your heart screams another. However, change is completely necessary to get the results you desire. Let go of the past and move on. You seem to be looking for a deeper meaning to your life; you need to do what is best for you.
Change your perspective and avoid playing the victim. You may be imprisoning yourself with your own rigid thoughts. It is going to get better once you change the way you see it. Work will improve as you get yourself focused and back on track. Only you can define what you can and cannot live with.
Try a new approach to the way you cope with a long term health problem and you will see it improve slowly over time. Sometimes life forces you to reflect and look within. You can heal your life quite simply by releasing negativity. You may need to make a decision that may seem negative at first, but then turns out to be a blessing in disguise.
Although you are attracted to someone you don’t quite know how to articulate or show it. There may be secrets in your love affair that need to come out. Maybe you could attempt a gentle discussion without confrontation, make your decision and keep moving.